Our little home in Springville is now gone, SAD! It is being rented out! That week was a week from H E double hockey stick! I have never ever been so stressed out in all my life. Ha! Maybe that's why my Hcg levels never went down! Here are a few pictures!!!! Enjoy!
Yeah I am finally in Knoxville with Bracken. Well actually I have been here for exactly one week now. Before I came out I went and got my Hcg levels test AGAIN! Yep they went up to 9. I swear one of these days I am going to have a major melt down. Ha! Oh wait I already did after my eptopic pregnancy! It has now been 10 weeks since that I am so ready to move on with more pregnancy stuff. However, there is still one major problem. My levels will not drop. So last Tuesday I went into a Lab corp and tested again. Yeah they were 6. Well today I went in again a week later and they were 6. I don't think I have ever been tried with my patience as much as I have today. I just don't know what to think anymore. I have almost one more month until we maybe do IVF. If my levels don't go down in the next week we have to wait another cycle. I honestly don't think I can do this anymore. I have never been so frustrated and confused in all my life. I know it's a true desire! Why are my prayers not being answered! Somedays I feel so alone and all I can do is cry! But then I get encouragement from those we read my sad sob story! ha! Trust me there are many of you who have gone through way more than I have, but I am the pathetic one who writes about it. jk!!!!! I really needed to blog tonight because I am alone in Knoxville waiting for my husband to get home around 11:30 pm!!! Yeah they drive two hours away each day to sell Vivant! If any of you who are reading this I have one quick question, Can you ovulate and still have HCG in you lovely system. I have researched and researched and have found conflicting opinions! I thought I had my period, but unfortunately it was probably left over tissue. So who knows when my period is ever going to come. I am praying with all my heart it was my period and I ovulated! ha! Yeah right! I have not ovulated on my own in years. I don't think I actually can! Okay okay enough venting for me tonight. I think it's time to look at homes in Idaho Falls for sale. Yes I know it's exciting! Well I love you all so much! Keep praying for me and I'll keep praying for all of you who so badly want a little one. Take care and talk to you tomorrow!
Darcee and I had to go to the mall. I found a sweet outfit. It is sorta hard to see but it is a jump suit! Too bad I looked like a oompa loompa! Sorry for the underwear shot and sweet facial expression!
