Our little home in Springville is now gone, SAD! It is being rented out! That week was a week from H E double hockey stick! I have never ever been so stressed out in all my life. Ha! Maybe that's why my Hcg levels never went down! Here are a few pictures!!!! Enjoy!
Yeah I am finally in Knoxville with Bracken. Well actually I have been here for exactly one week now. Before I came out I went and got my Hcg levels test AGAIN! Yep they went up to 9. I swear one of these days I am going to have a major melt down. Ha! Oh wait I already did after my eptopic pregnancy! It has now been 10 weeks since that I am so ready to move on with more pregnancy stuff. However, there is still one major problem. My levels will not drop. So last Tuesday I went into a Lab corp and tested again. Yeah they were 6. Well today I went in again a week later and they were 6. I don't think I have ever been tried with my patience as much as I have today. I just don't know what to think anymore. I have almost one more month until we maybe do IVF. If my levels don't go down in the next week we have to wait another cycle. I honestly don't think I can do this anymore. I have never been so frustrated and confused in all my life. I know it's a true desire! Why are my prayers not being answered! Somedays I feel so alone and all I can do is cry! But then I get encouragement from those we read my sad sob story! ha! Trust me there are many of you who have gone through way more than I have, but I am the pathetic one who writes about it. jk!!!!! I really needed to blog tonight because I am alone in Knoxville waiting for my husband to get home around 11:30 pm!!! Yeah they drive two hours away each day to sell Vivant! If any of you who are reading this I have one quick question, Can you ovulate and still have HCG in you lovely system. I have researched and researched and have found conflicting opinions! I thought I had my period, but unfortunately it was probably left over tissue. So who knows when my period is ever going to come. I am praying with all my heart it was my period and I ovulated! ha! Yeah right! I have not ovulated on my own in years. I don't think I actually can! Okay okay enough venting for me tonight. I think it's time to look at homes in Idaho Falls for sale. Yes I know it's exciting! Well I love you all so much! Keep praying for me and I'll keep praying for all of you who so badly want a little one. Take care and talk to you tomorrow!
Darcee and I had to go to the mall. I found a sweet outfit. It is sorta hard to see but it is a jump suit! Too bad I looked like a oompa loompa! Sorry for the underwear shot and sweet facial expression!
so glad you made it okay! and i think you meant to put "home in springville" but I knew what you meant :) love you and cant wait for your levels to go down...praying for you my love!!
ReplyDeleteWriting is always a good way to get feelings out. We'll keep praying so hard for you guys and know we're always just a hill walk away from you! Love you!
ReplyDeleteLove you Kate! You are amazing! I'm praying for you. I'm excited for you to come to Idaho Falls.
ReplyDeleteWow Katie. You are a trooper. Reading your blogs brings back so many memories. Clomid-check, Femara-check, Metformin and awful side effects-check, check, check! I am sorry, the metformin is so terrible on the stomach-I remember clearly, but in the end such a great drug. It really does help a ton and you have to keep taking it once your pregnant. I hope those HCG levels go down so you can do IVF. I didn't know about your ectopic pregnancy. You truly are a great example of patience. Hang in there. IVF isn't super easy either as far as side effects go. If IUI did you in, you'll have to really take it easy once those ovaries get SUPER full of eggs. I am really sensitive to medicine and the shots caused me to produce 66 eggs. My Dr. was really worried about hyper stimulation. The body can handle a lot though, as I am sure you've come to understand. You can call me anytime to chat if you just need someone to empathize. There are a lot of people who can sympathize but they just don't quite understand the mental, physical, and emotional toll. E-mail me sometime so I have your e-mail and I'll send you my phone #. (walkahil@gmail.com) Just remember, there really is a light at the end of the tunnel. Some tunnels are just longer than others. We'll pray for you guys. You are certainly very deserving of the blessings of motherhood! Love you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're having so many struggles Katie. Infertility is so hard because there is so much WAITING involved! You have to wait for this test, or that drug, or for a period to come, or not come! You guys will be in my prayers. Good luck with your hcg levels!
ReplyDeleteKatie! I just saw your blog on Darcee's! I knew you were doing this but I had no idea how crazy it is! I am so sorry to hear about your ectopic pregnancy, I hope you are doing ok. I know how hard it is to miscarry and I hope you don't give up. It will be so worth it one day. I will keep praying for you and hope that you will have good news to share soon!
ReplyDeleteKatie! I love you. I hope you know that you can call me whenever you need. I understand how it is to wait and wait. Nate and I started trying 3 months ago and now we have to stop again! So frustrating. Sometimes I want to just give up. But i know that we will have kids. We just have to be patient, Which Sucks!!! Love you
ReplyDeleteExplain your feeling through writing is good work. I read your post and so glad and pray for you.
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